Thursday, October 31, 2013

Happy Halloweenie!


Happy Halloweenie ya'll! How are things going with you? I apologize for being MIA like this whole year, but I have been extremely exhausted. EXHAUSTED people. I haven't been this exhausted except for when I was planning a wedding and moving at the same time.

I'm trying to balance everything at once; a study group, a woman's group, being a wife, daughter, fur mom, working part time, taking a photography class and starting my photography business. Oh my. I can't imagine what people do with actual little kids running around the home. You guys are my heroes. 

I haven't even had time to get candy this year for little trick or treaters. Although, I don't know if we'll have any trick or treaters because of the weather. All places seem to be thinking about moving trick or treating back a day. I can't believe it. I know when I was a kid, that would have never even happened, we even would trick or treat when there was snow on the ground. SNOW people. These kids are getting off easy. LOL.

Anyways, just wanted to stop in to tell ya'll that I'm still here and please bare with me. 


Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Cheese, please!


Guys, Trav and I always have a disagreement about cheese. You heard that right - cheese

It started when we were coming home from our honeymoon. We were tired from traveling all day from our wonderful Hawaii honeymoon. Then the unimaginable happened.


We got hungry at the airport while we waited for our next flight.


The only place that was close that was showing The Ohio State Game, was some sports Oriental Grill located close by. I'm very picky with food, and not a big fan of oriental food (I do like egg roles, but sushi just doesn't appeal to me). I scrolled through my options on the menu was that was a hamburger.


Thank goodness. But I need a cheeseburger. Sorry guys, I'm picky.  Trav questioned if I really wanted a cheeseburger in an oriental place as he already determined it wouldn't be that good (plus he really wanted oriental food). 


I really had to pee and couldn't wait, I got up to start to search for a restroom.


But I didn't get too far when I heard the guy ask, "Do you want cheese on that?" Trav said, "No thanks." Meanwhile across from the restaurant, "I want cheese with that" (telling the server). "Babe, it's a dollar more," Trav claimed pouting. "I don't care, I'm not going to eat a hamburger without cheese. It's only a dollar" As I argued with him in front of all the staring customers.


5 minutes later, our cheeseburger came out. Trav said it looked like they left the wrapper on the cheese, and it was barley cooked.So Trav reminds me that he paid an extra dollar for this. Was it worth it? Probably not to have a fight about it, but I wasn't going to admit that to him, after all, I wouldn't of ate it without it.


And what happened tonight? We went to Mexican restaurant for dinner, and got a burrito. It was a dollar extra to have cheese put on it.


Without even seeing if I wanted it or not, when the waiter asked if we wanted cheese, Trav said, "Yes, please."


I have trained him well. LOL.



Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Trying Not to Wake Him


It was four something in the morning. I tried to lay there with my eyes closed, but all I could do was toss and turn. My back seriously hurt and no matter what direction I laid, the discomfort wasn't going away.

The dogs knew that I was up. They started their stretching, and little Trig got in my face, as he does every single morning, excited to start the day. Surely, they would wake up Travis with all their commotion if I didn't wake him up with mine. I tiptoed into the bathroom to grab some pain medication and Trav's white robe (that I claim as mine) that was hanging from the door.


I peeked at Travis before I left the room. He looked so peaceful and I didn't want to ruin it. After all, he works so hard at trying to learn everything and be the best CRNA he can possibly be. He's doing all this to support us and our going to be growing family (one day). 


I left the room and took the puppies with me, and waited patiently for Trav to get up. Trav came out of the room a couple of hours later and found me in the living room. His face looked so serious. "I don't like waking up and you're not there." He hugged me so tight that I could feel the pressure being lifted off of him knowing that I was safe.


You guys, I didn't mean to scare him like that, but it was so adorable. I don't know what I would do without this guy in my life. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me. All I can give this guy in return is my whole heart.





Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Things I've Learned This Past Week



This past week, I've learned:

*Sometimes the most awkward moment is trying to figure out where to put your hands when you're laying in bed. There was one point when I laid on my stomach and put my hands like I was being searched. That didn't last either, and I spent the next half hour trying to figure out which way my hands would be comfortable.
*Since I've been able to sleep in lately (if you call it that), sometimes I pretend to still be sleeping, otherwise the dogs will be in my face excited for the morning. I wish I had their excitement, instead, I just want to sleep, just for a little longer.
*Through some bad times, people can come together. The fire at my work provided me a way to see the people I work with in a different light. I used to only see them working when I would pass by with a slight wave and smile, and hopefully be able to have a small talk conversation with them. This time, I saw actual conversations, people working side by side to get things together, people caring for others and people working together. Even though something tragic happened, the good came out and brought us closer together, smile and laughter.
*That we have some pretty awesome friends. Having a few close true friends is better than having many so-called friends. Our friend, Dan, was able to visit us this past week and the week before, good friends, Shelly and Noah came to visit. Your heart does a happy dance when you see them. It means so much to be able to sit down and laugh, joke, and tell stories with someone that means so much to you where you feel like no matter the distance, you can just pick up from where you left last. And you know that you mean the same to them. These are the friends you know you're going to have the rest of your life.
*To appreciate the small things. The other night as I laid in my bed, I fell asleep to the sound of crickets. The sound made me feel so safe, and secluded. If we move back to a larger city, we won't get that. Basically, don't take advantage of small things because you never know when you might have it again. 
*Flabergasted to have such a wonderful support group. This upcoming week is going to be so much fun. We're starting up our study group once again, the wives and children will be coming over so we can catch up, and I will be doing one of my first photography sessions since starting a facebook fan page. It was also nice to see everyone say such sweet things and support my new business. "You have talent, girl, of course people are going to like it", "Told you it was your calling", "Your pictures are beautiful". It makes you feel all tingly inside to know that people are behind you. 
*To look forward to the time you have now. I am a dreamer and always thinking about the future. Which just isn't fair, because I can sit and enjoy the time I have now. Trav and I are happily married enjoying a new life together, Trav has started his clinicals, we have pretty awesome friends and family, I started my business. Things don't need to be rushed - just enjoy the time you have now.

Sunday, September 8, 2013

What Happened to the Good in the World?

Sometimes people really make me sad. Watching the news brings me heartache because sometimes they don't highlight good stuff that is happening, just mostly the negative. 

What happened to morals, people? Why do people cheat on their significant other? Why do people think it's okay to have sex with multiple people, sometimes even at the same time? Why do people enjoy watching these things on shows? What is wrong with having sex with one person you love, and staying faithful to that person? My question to them would be why would you hurt someone you love like that? Just blows my mind.


No living person/creature deserves any form of abuse. There are just no words. What ever taught them to be that kind of person? Just imagine, if someone can do that to something so small and unprotected (especially animals, children and the elderly), what kind of person are they? 


When did you think it was okay to take things from others or to scam them? There was a whole thing on the news about people who pickpocket. Why would someone even think that's okay to steal something from someone's pocket/out of their car/their home/property? Someone else worked really hard for that, and a person is just going to take it away when they didn't do anything to deserve it? It's scary that you can walk out of your house, leave everything behind, knowing that someone can break into your home, or even steal from your own pockets, without you even knowing. Where is the shame?


People also love to scam others, especially the elderly. How selfish they are to even come up with this idea in their head and then play along with it to get money out of people. This is how they treat someone, even people that they know?


People also sue all the time. A person sued because someone hit them with a shopping cart (where she said it caused an injury). Honestly, people, will make a law suit out of just about anything and get away with just about everything. Scary - especially when it didn't really cause them physical/mental harm. These people are taking advantage of people just so they can make extra money. It really makes you terrified about anything - even if someone falls at your home, or if you're in the wrong place at the wrong time, or something that you can't control, but somehow you are responsible for it.


Why do people kill? I'm not talking about self protection. People who let anger, jealously, or even greed take control their lives even for a split second. I can't even imagine things like this, or things such as extreme as what Hilter did. There is just no comprehending it.


We're pretty brave people to go out and face this scary world of ours, each and every single day.


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I don't know what God thinks about his world, but he has to have some form of disappointment. It seems like the small, great things are hard to find.  

The Bible tells us not to judge, but I am concerned, how could these things not be judged? What kind of surrounds are kids going to be raised into?


All I want is for people to be kind to each other and not hurt each other. What a wonderful world that would make for a change.




Thursday, September 5, 2013

Prayer Board

A couple weeks ago, a friend found me personally and asked me to pray for them. To be honest, I never had someone ask me for that besides seeing something on facebook for someone needing prayers, or over the phone, but honestly, no one asking me in person. It meant so much to me that they knew about my faith because in a post here, I wasn't really sure if people knew that I am religious or not.

Finding this project idea on Pinterest, I knew I had to make it. What a great idea.




The burlap is from Joann's Fabric Store and I just picked up some random 2 pages of scrapbook paper. The cardboard is something that was going to get thrown away at work where I just stapled two of them together. Then I stapled the fabric on the cardboard.




It doesn't have to be perfect because no one is going to see the back, just be careful with the corners, as you want that to look nice. 

Just cut out names/prayers, a title for your board with scrapbook paper and glue/pin it  on.  Woah-la-la. You are done and it makes a nice little addition without spending a fortune.



I placed it in our kitchen on a wall we walk by frequently. This makes it so much easier to be able to say a prayer for someone or to remember them during the day. Also, people who have came over also seem to admire it. I'm not sure if they silently say a prayer or not because I'm not really sure how people feel, but perhaps they say one too.


Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Perfect Opportunity


You know that saying, "That would never happen to me" kind of thing?

Well... last week, there was a fire at my work place. 


Thankfully, it happened in the wee early morning, not harming anyone. However, we went back to "work" cleaning up after the fire so that construction can come. We are getting an early remodel, so when we do go back to work, everything will look so much different.


Although the fire was devastating to see how much a fire really effects a work place, it was awesome to see our co-workers pull through and come together. Also, district came in and is really taking care of us, which really surprised me. I thought since I would be out of work for about a month, I would have to find a new job. Instead, they are paying us our average weekly salary until we can get back into work. I couldn't be more grateful.


With that being said, I seriously had to look at myself. I can't just do nothing during the days because although some days I like to have a lazy day, it also makes me unhappy knowing that I didn't accomplish anything. So what am I going to do? What do I want to do before having to go back to work?


So I need to accomplish something that I've always wanted to try as I have the time.


That would be getting serious about my photography. I love taking pictures of others. I'm not incredible at it, and I have a lot to learn, however, I think people would be able to help me reach my goal. 


Maybe I can do it in steps, because isn't that always how it has to happen? A baby can't magically walk without learning to pull themselves up, hold someone's hand and take their first baby steps. 


So my goals would be to start my website/facebook page, make enough money so I take a photography class online, then if I can make more, pay enough for a real photo editor and then take a class.


I am hoping I can make this happen, because it's something I love to do. I don't know if I'll make it big, or even if I want to, I just want to do something that makes me happy and might make others happy too.


Also, with this perfect opportunity, I can focus on other important things to me, like having a relationship more with God, being a better wife and fur momma, getting healthier, and even focus a little time on myself.


So time to jump in! 


Check it out:


Lilley Pad Photography




Thursday, August 29, 2013

Lazy Cake Cookies

You guys know how much I adore simple recipes right? Well, my friend told me about this recipe found here. These are soooo good!



Lazy Cake Cookies

*1 box of yellow/white cake mix (I use yellow)
*2 Tbsp mayo (optional - I add this - don't worry, you won't taste it, it just makes it super moist)
*2 eggs beaten
*1 stick melted butter
*2 cups chocolate chips



Directions

1. Preheat oven for 350 degrees.
2.  Mix in a bowl together: cake mix, mayo, eggs, melted butter and chocolate chips.
3. Put mixture in a 9x13 that has already been sprayed with cooking spray.
4. Bake for 20 mins.
5. Enjoy the AMMAAZZZIINNNGGG goodness! 

The trick is trying not to eat them all before guests arrive. :)



Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Wine and Canvas




After hearing about my friend's, Kate's and her husband's experience with "Wine and Canvas" I knew I had to do it. So for my 26th birthday, Trav surprised me telling me we were going to do a Wine and Canvas experience. However, because of the time that they had it, we were unable to do a couple's wine and canvas (a week in June 2013). That didn't matter, as long as we were together. 



When we got to the restaurant we were suppose to meet at, Trav insisted on ordering wine since it was a "Wine and Canvas". Don't worry, he also had a beer close by and his phone displaying every move that the Indians made. We also ordered some got some cheesy garlic bread, making our date perfect.




Don't let Trav fool you, he enjoyed it.





After we finished, we decided to only take one photo home to display (although Trav wanted to hang both of them in the kitchen so we could ask each guest that entered our house which one was better). Well, we weren't going to do that. Instead, we asked our parents which one they liked better.



Let's just say mine is displaying in our home, while Trav's at his mom's house. :)

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

One Day

There was another reason why I have not wrote. It was a personal matter and that me think our lives would be in for a big change. I wrote this earlier, but just published it until now with a few changes. 

Dear Future Little One,


During this summer I thought I was pregnant.

Fears caught the best of me.

Let me start off by saying that I didn't feel good.

And I was unable to use the restroom for a month. 
My emotions were flying off the charts.
My boobs became hard as rocks.
I became frantic looking up for signs of what may be going on.
Every symptom I typed in gave me pages of google results marked as "pregnancy symptoms".
I stared at the computer for a long time in disbelief - not knowing where to begin.
Plus it didn't help that I miscalculated my birth control for the past two months.
And the previous month's period was just a little light blood and then it was done, making me feel like I never "fully" had my last period.

What if I was really pregnant?

What was I going to do?
How would I tell your father?
I kept telling myself: this is not the time.

Daddy is in school.

I only work part-time.
My eating habits are bad, will that effect you? (Ha, you may be laughing at this now, but this has always been a concern for me).
I am selfish. 
With all these reasons, God has to know that we can't have a baby at this time - because this just isn't the right time for me.

I didn't tell Dad my thoughts because I wanted his mind on school as his finals were approaching.

So I kept it a secret and waited.
And waited (which seemed forever, but it really wasn't).
If I calculated it right, I should be having my period soon, so no need to get a pregnancy test.
And I honestly still didn't "feel" pregnant. 

However, my thoughts started consuming me about you.

What if I really was pregnant?
Life wouldn't be about me anymore.
It would be all about you.

What would your name be?

What would you look like?
Would you have your dad's beautiful eyes?
My curly hair?
Which one of our big noses? 
What would you be like?
Would you be passionate like your daddy?
What will grandma's reaction be like?
What will you smell like?
How can we make the best possible life for you?
How will you make an impact on others?
So many questions, making me smile with hope thinking that you were growing inside me.

Then my period came. A couple days later than expected.


I was not pregnant.

I was sad knowing that you weren't growing inside me and instead I was only dreaming of you and how perfect you will be.

This is not God's timing. And no matter how much preparing a person does, they will probably never be fully "prepared."


One day, (not now) you may be growing in my belly or be born in my heart,

And the day you become part of our lives, we will forever be changed.
In such an incredible, blessed way.
We will try to be the best parents for you.
And try to provide you with all your needs and every learning opportunity possible.
We will you safe (and knowing me, maybe a little too safe).
And most of of all, we will love you like our father loves us.
You will be perfect for us and this family.
One day.

I can't wait to meet you when God's timing is right.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Kate and Steven Photoshoot

My best friend, Kate, and her husband have been married for 5 years this past May. She is such a wonderful friend, and a great inspiration to many people (she's beautiful inside and out, can craft like nobody's business, one of the funniest people you will ever meet, etc.) so naturally I wanted to capture the love between her and her husband. After all, they are a couple that I look to guidance of what a marriage should be like. Kate is also a perfectionist, which is awesome, making me a little nervous to do a photoshoot of them, but I love these photos of them and I hope that these photos will pass any expectations she may have had.